dedicated to all my friends...

Have u ever hated ur friends? U know, ur really close ones. .the ones whom u know from the last 10-12 years..or maye be more..u have literally grown up with them..seen them, wearing half trousers to school..cumng to school holding their parent’s hands and some also on parents’s scooters..., crying when made to sit beside girls..fytng over highest marks,tryng to becum the teacher’s pet….dancing oddly on the cultural functions on teacher’s days and doing march past on republic days!! trying hard(most of the tyms failing!!!) to adjust when the class teacher changed our places(..and that’s how we made our enemies! suddenly i miss my enemies!),..gettng beaten to blue by our teachers(one poor guy got nine slaps at one go, by an english teacher of ours..oh!those glorious days!! deep sigh)..... spending hours, just by talking uselessly( also mindlessly)...playing pranks ,creating rumours and fighting hard on"who said what "and the numerous number of gossips and controversies that were part of our daily lives during school…and then cryng foolishly on our school farewell…
I saw them through college….that was a tricky period.. am not really sure what effect it had on them and what actually happened then......u know....the introverts became extroverts and vice versa…the introvert intelligent, walked the ramp for a college fashion show…the quite shy, did drugs…the truly committed ,broke up and fell in love n number of times…..the dancer stopped dancing and started to study hard( and whole nights too!!)for semesters, trimesters, quaterly exams, sometimes for class tests or even surprise quizzes!!.…the singers stopped singing...the nerd, getng drunk on college socials and cryng foolishly….the painter stopped to paint and started studyng about electrical circuits…the hopeless romantic, picking up a guitar and started playng rock music!!the confused loner, suddenly became a stand up comedian…. The flamboyant lover..well he remained a flamboyant lover ..yeah some thngs did remain the same…
anyway life moved on....
I saw them getting graduate..and some studying for post graduation…and some with their first jobs..(no one has yet given me a treat for that though!)u shameless people!)!I saw them fall in love..then also fall out of love..then ready to get married..and actually getting married(yesh one of them, a guy, to be precise, got married at the tender age of 21!!!)..and actually getng on the verge of becoming a parent(its only that guy who got married!he has always been a lil forward than the rest of us! )
So u see..my feeling of hatred towards them is not what I aimed for in the long run…they all have slowly,steadily and surely gained that themselves…they have put in their best efforts in the process…they thought and planned…they manipulated....they bribed…they did anything and everything under the blue sky and the dark universe to make me hate them…and u knw how they actually acomplished the task?? THEY (just) GOT BUSY!!
I got busy too…but I always had and will have time for them..
but I still do hate them anyway..
And by the way merry christmass to u all!!

anger.....

have u ever felt angry for no reasn in particular? am sure u must have felt so..i have asked this question to many of my friends and foes and they all have replied in affirmation....so taking for granted, that u my frnd also do get angry without any reasn, let me confess to u the fact that, at this very moment am feelng just so!am angry!! very much! and any one cumng within 5 mts of my aura, is getng severley thrashed (or rather burnt)by super sarcastical commnts!!
so am left alone for good and i have sat down to write this post...where am tryng to realise the origin of my unwanted, unexpected wrath!
the day began quite well...i woke up late...had a great breakfast(it was already cold..i told you i woke up late)..read my whole sunday newspaper...(i like to read fresh paper, b4 any1 reads it..today it was already opened and read by my sister,
but .....nevrmind..)it was a nice sunday morning and there was nothing to destroy my unadulterated satisfaction about it...
i went out with my mother...it was a sunday, and it definitely seemed one! there were kids all over the place..they were wearing bright coloured sweaters, mufflers, monkey caps!!oh!! how wonderful they all looked! how colourful each one of them was!they were happy...they were out with their parents to enjoy the day! (i was out with one of my parent too....but i was on my way to give a exam...i was tensed, i was worried, i was feelng restless!!..well when u dont study and expect for miracles to happen in your answer sheets u do get such feeling...some of u must be knowing it....
but...... nevermind...)
i reached my destination..there were students all over...studyng, chattng with frnds...discussng questions....all set to give their best shot!(yeah i was dere..alone,without any frnd, without any any knowledge of wat the questions will be about..i was feelng like running away!! i started to think.."girl, what r u doing here?...u shud have been in ISRO now..planning the launch of chandrayan II"!! the thougt gave me enough comfort...well now i knw that i can surely perform better here than at ISRO....
but soon enuf the upcoming anxiety of the ordeal called examination engulfed me...
but........ nevermind..)
finally, i sat for my examination...my neighbouring examinees were lost in their question booklets..scribbing answers...it was all very quite (yes,i was writing too...i wrote what i knew well...and things i knew not so well..and also things i had no idea about...i was stuck, i was scared..time was running away...it has never waited for me!!why is this injustice only with me god??!!
but..... nevermind....)
the exam ended..i left the hall..there were some smilling faces, some worried and some satisfied ones ...(this time i was smilling...and this was a genuine smile...am alive..i have survived it.....i tired to hide from myself,the fact that there are more of these ordeals to come in the near future....
but.... nevermind)
it was enjoying my way back home...i was feeling the cold winds on my face..it was soothing..refreshing..satisfying........(my mother suddenly felt that i will catch some common cold/flu/fever/influenza/tuberculosis/whatever!!!and i shud close the window of the car at once!!
.....but..... nevermind)
somehow i reached home..washed up..and ran to get my story book..i have been reading it religiously for the last 3 days..it was a tagore's novel...it was a romantic drama...it had certain hints of feel good humour in it...i knew i need it...(but then i decided not to read it....well,in my absence the book was taken away, by one of my cousin..she too wanted to read it..and today only..
but.... nevermind)
well...now u see there was absolutely no reason for me to get angry...but still i am!! and so very much!!! i will never understand myself!!
but nevermind.....

well.. i shud give some introduction..

blogging is totally a new thing to me...i kinda discovered it today..well i know many of u must be wondering whether i live in some remote part of some oddly remote country,with no modern facilities and technologies..but the ans is no..i live in a pretty much well connected and for the namesake a metropolitian city...but as u will get to know me u will understand y am so blissfully ignorant! for a start,the reason being that am a big fan of the master detective-Sherlock Holmes and he once said that-ur mind is a vacant room, decorate it tastefully, fill it with things u need to have...just dnt stuff it with countless useless comodities...
well thats a pretty much fancy way to say it..but the actual reason is am just plain lazy...and blogging i thot myt have required a lot of thinking and typing...am doing it now...and inspite of myself, am finding it as a refreshing change..
by now u must have understood that i talk way too much than required..and thankfully, no one is gona ask me to stop here...its my blog and am the one to speak here..:P
well besides talking, i like to travel...although i have been to very few places, outside my home town..but i enjoyed my evry travelling experiences...and i do plan to visit a lot of exotic places in the near future...oh, how much i wud love to visit the Europe!! even the thought makes me feel happy!some times i think i shud have been a sailor, u knw..wandering aimlessly in the big big deep blue oceans..discovering places..and naming them..yeah, am no columbus..but columbus was no priom...:P and btw mark my words am not gonna discover another America for sure! one has done enuf damage to the world already!!
well its this much for now...will be posting soon*
*i make a lot of spelling mistakes, i kinda have some problem with them..sorry about it..kindly bear with me...