anger.....

have u ever felt angry for no reasn in particular? am sure u must have felt so..i have asked this question to many of my friends and foes and they all have replied in affirmation....so taking for granted, that u my frnd also do get angry without any reasn, let me confess to u the fact that, at this very moment am feelng just so!am angry!! very much! and any one cumng within 5 mts of my aura, is getng severley thrashed (or rather burnt)by super sarcastical commnts!!
so am left alone for good and i have sat down to write this post...where am tryng to realise the origin of my unwanted, unexpected wrath!
the day began quite well...i woke up late...had a great breakfast(it was already cold..i told you i woke up late)..read my whole sunday newspaper...(i like to read fresh paper, b4 any1 reads it..today it was already opened and read by my sister,
but .....nevrmind..)it was a nice sunday morning and there was nothing to destroy my unadulterated satisfaction about it...
i went out with my mother...it was a sunday, and it definitely seemed one! there were kids all over the place..they were wearing bright coloured sweaters, mufflers, monkey caps!!oh!! how wonderful they all looked! how colourful each one of them was!they were happy...they were out with their parents to enjoy the day! (i was out with one of my parent too....but i was on my way to give a exam...i was tensed, i was worried, i was feelng restless!!..well when u dont study and expect for miracles to happen in your answer sheets u do get such feeling...some of u must be knowing it....
but...... nevermind...)
i reached my destination..there were students all over...studyng, chattng with frnds...discussng questions....all set to give their best shot!(yeah i was dere..alone,without any frnd, without any any knowledge of wat the questions will be about..i was feelng like running away!! i started to think.."girl, what r u doing here?...u shud have been in ISRO now..planning the launch of chandrayan II"!! the thougt gave me enough comfort...well now i knw that i can surely perform better here than at ISRO....
but soon enuf the upcoming anxiety of the ordeal called examination engulfed me...
but........ nevermind..)
finally, i sat for my examination...my neighbouring examinees were lost in their question booklets..scribbing answers...it was all very quite (yes,i was writing too...i wrote what i knew well...and things i knew not so well..and also things i had no idea about...i was stuck, i was scared..time was running away...it has never waited for me!!why is this injustice only with me god??!!
but..... nevermind....)
the exam ended..i left the hall..there were some smilling faces, some worried and some satisfied ones ...(this time i was smilling...and this was a genuine smile...am alive..i have survived it.....i tired to hide from myself,the fact that there are more of these ordeals to come in the near future....
but.... nevermind)
it was enjoying my way back home...i was feeling the cold winds on my face..it was soothing..refreshing..satisfying........(my mother suddenly felt that i will catch some common cold/flu/fever/influenza/tuberculosis/whatever!!!and i shud close the window of the car at once!!
.....but..... nevermind)
somehow i reached home..washed up..and ran to get my story book..i have been reading it religiously for the last 3 days..it was a tagore's novel...it was a romantic drama...it had certain hints of feel good humour in it...i knew i need it...(but then i decided not to read it....well,in my absence the book was taken away, by one of my cousin..she too wanted to read it..and today only..
but.... nevermind)
well...now u see there was absolutely no reason for me to get angry...but still i am!! and so very much!!! i will never understand myself!!
but nevermind.....