something special..

from the time i have started writting this blog..i havnt really divulged any personal information about me..i wrote about incidents and my reactions to them..but sometimes its the feelings that accompanies certain unexpected moments that makes a good material to write about..some one has rightly said once that if u share your happiness it increases and wen u we share ur griefs, it decreases...today am gona follow this golden advice of the wise man and share with u my happiness and my grief..i may use a lot of words and write up a real messy piece, but do read it carefully....no,they r not something am boasting about...i just wana share,and expect that somehow i inspire u, to do the same..

lets talk about greifs first..then at least we can have a happy ending...:P

my biggest grief is my elder sister ...dont think am saying it, just for the sake of saying something.....am saying it becauses its actually the saddest part in my life...normal young people of my age, become sad due to low grades , love affairs going wrong, not gettng a new gadget to play with, short of pocket money..they have lots of reasons...am unfortunate to have only one....my sister is the single most important thing in my life..and what do u do when the thing u love most gets damaged?u care for it even more....if anything even slightest harm occurs to it,u feel ten times more than whats expected...

my sister got blind in an accident.....

when she cries, even when if its for nothing..i knw i can live with a rejection from harvard university, but not see her cry....i also feel in love, broke my heart, cried my heart out on my pillows...but that pain is nothing compared to the one when she got hurt and broke her leg....when anything bad happens to me...i knw i have better reasons to cry about...i have seen bigger griefs than this.....

now the thing which keeps me happy...its also my sister...

that accident not only robbed her of her vision but also her life stopped then and there....she resides at that age,she still feels she 12 year old girl and acts accordingly...she demands, she shows tantrums, becomes happy with new dresses and colourful hair bands...she religiously sits with her braile and studies every morning and evening...and sometimes she even do my work for me....only her mere presence is a reason enough for me to be happy....i am not a prefect person..i do mistakes quite often..but for her am a superhero..i can never do anythng wrong...she shows her pride in me in whatever i do..she thinks me beautiful and intelligent (although very few people might agree with this fact)...she instils in me such a confidence that sometimes i feel i can take on the whole world...some times we fight too(cumon we are siblings)...but she is always the one to say sorry and patch up...she criticises me,when am on the wrong side...she makes fun of my weaknesses,but then she always makes it clear that she loves me even with them....my friends say that am spoiled by my sister...she shares all her gifts with me....whenever something new is bought for her, she makes sure that i get something new too!!and u must see the glint of happiness all over her face when i bring her the jelly lojence that hawkers sell in the train compartments....

and u know what, may be u will never realise the way i feel, when u know that no matter what happens..whatever u do..wherever u are...there will be one person u can always fall back on..one person who will always be there for you..one person who will always think that u r the best!

she lives her incomplete life through me..but its she who makes my life complete....